Life still sucks...but it does get better!

Entry #20

I can't stop thinking about Ken and all he is missing out on by choosing to leave us.  Suicide is such a nasty, devasting thing to do to the family and friends you claim to love.  I know that the person who is struggling doesn't see it that way, but the rest of us do.  Not ever having been in a place so dark before it's hard to understand just what that feels like and the skew it creates for a person's thoughts and actions.

 

Today I'm going to the International Survivors of Suicide Day Conference in Sacramento.  Not really feeling up for a big emotional day, but I know it's important to my healing, coping, and understanding.  I really want to feel at peace, I need to feel at peace again.

 

The International Survivors of Suicide Day is always held on the third Saturday in November and helps to gather and comfort thousands of survivors of suicide loss around the world. Both the newly bereaved and those who are years out from their loss come together to remember and honor their loved ones and further build a community of survivors.

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01.10 | 11:30

It will be 13 years ago on 10/4 when my boyfriend chose suicide as a way out too. Thank you for sharing! ~ peace, love & light.

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14.04 | 06:43

Awesome blog. I am suicidal, on mess and see my shrink weekly. It helps to be reminded how much pain suicide inflicts on the family. thank you

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04.08 | 09:31

My thoughts are with you. I had two nephews commit suicide. Bryant was 32 and Keith was 30. Why why why!!???

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14.06 | 19:55

Ken's choice was not in anyway your fault. My step father of 33 years decided to hang himself at the age of 91. Heartbreaking, the grief is different- as stated

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