Ugh! THE HOLIDAYS are here. Never in my life have I hated that term to much. During the last few years, THE HOLIDAYS were anything but joyous in our house. It was always a struggle for Ken during
this time and we all seemed to be trying to be extra UP to make up for his lack of enthusiasm. I understand that not everyone feels happy during THE HOLIDAYS but most people don't appear to go out of their way to make them miserable for everyone else.
Thanksgiving is in a couple of days and I'm really trying to hard to feel thankful for all the good in my life. (Our last Thanksgiving together is pictured.) Often all the bad
of this year just overwhelms me. I keep trying to focus on my grandson and remember that life does go on. He is such a joyous blessing to my life!
So I'm feeling kind of bittersweet
about celebrating THE HOLIDAYS this year. I'm glad that I won't have anyone here who makes them miserable and at the same time I'm incredibly sad that Ken won't be here to join us. Ah the contradictory emotions of suicide loss.