I am determined to have peace in my life again.

Entry #22

Since the day Ken died I have been on medical leave from work.  Dealing with the PTSD and depression have been a full time job.  I'm scheduled to return to work tomorrow. My therapist says I need to give it a try. I know I can't go back.  I'm not ready. I still cry at the drop of a hat and never know when it will hit or what will trigger it.  I can't focus for very long at a time and trying to multi-task isn't likely to be successful.  


I've had anxiety about this looming date for weeks. My therapist says I need to try so try I will.  I'm sure another sleepless night is on the way. 

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01.10 | 11:30

It will be 13 years ago on 10/4 when my boyfriend chose suicide as a way out too. Thank you for sharing! ~ peace, love & light.

14.04 | 06:43

Awesome blog. I am suicidal, on mess and see my shrink weekly. It helps to be reminded how much pain suicide inflicts on the family. thank you

04.08 | 09:31

My thoughts are with you. I had two nephews commit suicide. Bryant was 32 and Keith was 30. Why why why!!???

14.06 | 19:55

Ken's choice was not in anyway your fault. My step father of 33 years decided to hang himself at the age of 91. Heartbreaking, the grief is different- as stated

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